Stand By Me

In the midst of preparing for my finance tute tomorrow morning... Yucks, I hate finance. Its getting a bit difficult. Probably I havent been reading my textbook. Luckily I finished my accounting tute yest, so I can fully concentrate on my finance tute...

Been reading other ppl's blog. Now's the time to write mine. I cant imagine my life right now to be so different from what I think it would be. Studies has become the priority of my life, and probably this Korean drama show called !Bi Sheng Shun Feng Ying that I've been watching. Literally cried at every episode. Something inside that show stirs me up. Something that relates to what I'm going through right now. Dont bother asking me what it is, I shall not mention it.

Seems like everyone that I was close to last yr has disappeared. Everytime I call them or ask them out, I either seem to get a "Not enthusiatic" response, or I dont seem to get a response at all. Come on, having new housemates mean that I wont have time for u guys. I'll still be around for u, talk to u and go out with u.

Been playing Aunt agony to many nowadays. When will it be anyone's turn to play aunt agony to me? When will anyone stop the tears coming out of my eyes everyday? When will someone love me, take care of me and pay attention to my emotional needs?

Stop crying your heart out...

Been pretty busy for the past week... Studies has seem to take a toll on my life... Its the 1st time since Jc since I ever studied 7 days a week. My psychology proposal is due next week. Have been having group meetings and doing countless journal readings for it. Its good though, cos I have a chance to come up with a new hypothesis, conduct experiments and write a new lab report. Thank goodness for psychology. Its what I really like and want to do. Compared to boring and tedious accounting lectures and tutes that I have to go through. Its even worse for finance. For the 1st lecture, I could understand 100%, then for the 2nd lecture it gets less and less until the recent lecture which I only understood 10%.

Life's been pretty fufiling. I see myself waking up early in the morning(thanks to my 2 housemates who sleep and wake up early), going for sch or studying in the morning, coming back and having lunch(sandwiches or cereals) and the occassional meet ups with friends in uni. Studies continue in the late afternoon, after which I come back and prepare for dinner about 6. We end dinner at about 7 plus, after which I'll bathe and continue studying or chat on msn. Not forgetting the occassional talks that I have with my housemates. Being busy is good. Keeps me occupied and not think about stupid things.

Life may seem good at the moment, but somehow, something is missing... I miss the ppl that were in my life last year... The ones which kept me going when no one else was there... The laughs and talks that I have with them... Where are u guys? I miss you all and please dont abandon me....

pinnacles and sandboarding at lancelin (11/3/06)

went for a trip to the pinnacles and sandboarding organised by the international students society yesterday.

It began with me waking up at 6 am baking pies with Jasmine, my housemate for everyone in the trip as Jasmine's in the iss commitee. We were super short of time as we had to meet in uni at 7 am. And we had around a hundred pies to heat up. We use our oven, our griller, our microwave oven and our toaster oven to heat up all the pies. The guys (my housemate Jason and Michael, Jasmine's bf) only woke up at 7. Hee hee, but all thanks to Jason, for helping us clean the kitchen after we made a mess out of it. We left for pinnacles at 7 am after carrying all the food and drinks to the bus.

For all the peeps in Spore who'll be coming over in June, we could probably head up north to the pinnacles followed by sandboarding! Here's a pic of the pinnacles. With me is Bernice(the girl with the pink t-shirt), a good friend of mine and the organiser of this trip. Pinnacles is famous for its rock, as seen in the pic. I didnt really read my brochure, so I dont really know how the rocks were formed. All I know is its an attraction among tourists, and its defintely worth a visit.

After which, we left for sandboarding at Lancelin. Lancelin's about an hour and a half drive away from the pinnacles. We 1st looked around to rent sandboards. We found one where we could rent if for $10 for 2 hours. We paid a deposit and then went on to sandboard. Its like snowboarding. We could choose between the sit down ones and stand-up ones. The sand was pretty soft, so its pretty good. However, it felt a bit irritating cos the sand kept blowing into everyone's eyes, and we spent a lot of time rubbing the sand off our eyes. I was a bit afraid to go down cos I was afraid of going down on slopes. But after 2 rounds, I got used to it and found it quite fun. Michael warned all of us not to slide down on a slope where we can see rocks at the bottom. However, a friend, didnt see the rocks at the bottom and had a bad sprain. Thank god he's okie. It was all fun nevertheless. I came back at 7 plus pm from the trip. After dinner, I felt so tired that I knocked out at 9 pm... The earliest I slept in a few years! Haha...

good trip, good fun =)

study, study, study...

Had 3 tutes today....

Was pretty good having Joe as my tutor.. given that I've known him for 2 years now... I always wanted to be his student since I knew he was tutoring... he's pretty okie for the 1st tute.. Got a bit embarassed when I answered a tute qn" managers can partake in a shareholders' renumeration scheme to maximise shareholders' wealth in order to reduce agency costs". THen he asked " so what's the scheme about?" Deep down inside I was thinking "er, I dont know" so I said I wasnt sure.... Another guy in the class answered the qn... After talking to Joe online just now, I just realised that the answer is actually in the textbook... crap... so much for intro to finance... I heard from Joe and Jason, my housemate that Fishers' Theorem is gonna be pretty hard, so I better buck up for next week...

Couldnt understand half of what was going on for management accounting... Everyone tells me its easy but I couldnt really understand 2 qns of the 1st tute... I better master management accounting...

Worse still, in my 1st lab for psychology today, I couldnt really do some of the qns... got stuck and I had to ask my tutor how to do it... I wish I was in Lucia's class... I just got to know that 2 of my friends are in her tute... that'll be good for them... my tutor's not too bad though... she gave us additional notes for the lab exercises.. ah... I suddenly remembered I have to go buy an A4 exercise book for my lab book!

How cool is that? Joe's a finance tutor and Lucia's a psych tutor and they're housemates and I happen to know them for 2 years and I'm in both of their tutorial classes.. The chances of that happening is ..."one in a million"! haha... I can imagining them asking each other "so how did nicole do in your tute today?"

Haha... Just a boring blog about work... I came to realise 2nd and 3rd yr units are not so easy... I better buck up... Like Joe said" You better study hard, girl!"

no more 3 pm itf lectures...

I regretted going for a 3 pm intro to finance lecture...

I was doing my tutes yesterday as I had a tutorial on wednesday so that I wont have to rush last minute today... I slept pretty late at abou 3 plus... I set up my alarm at 9 thinking that I would be able to wake up... I woke up at 8 plus, but I switched off my alarm and went back to bed... at 9 30, I decided to go for the repeat lecture at 3 pm... Didnt sleep up as I wole up at intervals of 20 to 30 mins from 9 to 11 20 before I finally woke up to meet a friend for lunch at 12...

Going for the 3 pm lecture was a huge mistake... The air-con was not working in the lt and it was 37 degrees today... I was so hot and tired... I couldnt get most of what my lecturer was saying as I was to the point of dozing off... Plus it was a 2 hour lecture... Had another psychology lecture at 5... though there was air-con, I still felt sleepy... plus my psych lecturer was going on at bullet speed...

I have finished my intro to finance tute... only 2 more qns left for my management accounting tute... Its 11 25 pm now and I have to wake up at 8 am for my intro to finance tute tomorrow...

Remind me to go for the 10 am lecture next week.. It'll be cooler in the morning and it'll be better.... No more 3 pm itf lecture until its autumm? hee hee...


A sleepy nicole signing off.... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

In deep thoughts...

Something that I've always been interested to know is how to people think? And why do they think the way they do? I've always been fascinated about psych; the expts that I learn and what the results are.. Some of them simply amazes you...

One thing that I really hope to know is what makes people sad? Is it because of our neurons? How do we get to feel sad?

Been seeing a lot of people msn nick's... I've seen a lot of sad nicks, whereby they feel upset and they put it out... Sometimes I wonder how people cope when they're sad.. Do they eat ice-cream or lots of chocolates? Do they use rational to think through it and then use rationality to dispel their sadness? Or do they simply just try to be happy because they think that there's no point showing that u're sad?

I've tried all 3... but for me, or generally for most girls, all they want is for someone to be willing to listen to them... Someone who can sense that they're sad and ask them and console them... As years go by, its pretty hard to find... All around me I see people trying to conceal their sadness, or probably telling out their problems, which is pretty good... Me? I've been trying to find people to talk to when I'm sad... But for the last 2 yrs, I cant really seem to find anyone... Everyone seems to be busy, or they simply couldnt be bothered if I'm upset... Or maybe I've probably reached a level whereby I can conceal most of the sadness within me and try to be a happy person... anyways what I think is people feel sad all the time, so why not be happy and positive?

I've been so tired... I really hope someone can listen to me when I feel down... I kinda hate trying to be happy, or trying to be rational... Sometimes it gets to the point whereby u just cant take it anymore and u just want to let it all out... Its been years since I feel appreciated... And sometimes I just need to feel appreciated for the things I do...

Sorry if you have to suffer reading this... somehow I can only pour out my sorrows in my blog... so sorry again if u have to endure this...

But to everyone who's having a bad day, cheer up! You can always come look for me and always remember this; you will feel sad in a lot of times in your life, and its up to you to remain sad, or feel happy even though circumstances may do u in no good favour...

Another stupid thought by me...

The longest holidays that my uni has...

I had just finished attending all mt lectures today. Was looking through the dates of my exams and assignments and was writing it down in my diary when I was curious when and how long my breaks will be. It turns out that...

I have a 10 day easter break from 14th of April to the 24th of April.
I have a month mid-semester break from 24th of June to the 24th of July. That is dependant on when my mid-sem finishes. If it finishes before the 24th, which I think it will, then I'll have more than a month's worth of holiday. But I cant confirm when my exams will end till may.

Hey Kaili, meixian, and whoever's coming to Perth, this is my holiday. Maybe u guys can plan to come on the 25th or something. I'll still have time to go visit the eastern states by then. I really hope the world cup will end by that time. Oh yes, speaking of the world cup, gotta go check the dates and time. Hopefuly I'll be able to go back to Trinity to watch it or something. Or maybe my currie hall friends can let me in for a while to let me watch? hee hee.. We shall see... damn... its a long holiday... will be definitely worth it if i go back to spore... but nah... think i'll stay and work and enjoy or something... Gonna plan what I'm gonna do to keep me occupied soon... after I have settled my sch stuff... Need to see how much time I have to spend studying and see what I'm gonna do from there...

Crabbing

Hee hee... In the mood for blogging so i'll just blog about the crabbing trip i had last sat.

Went with a bunch of friends last sat night... there were 9 of us with 4 nets and 4 torches.... We drove an hour plus to this place called mandurah. There was a beach there. The water was very shallow... even when u walk down 10 metres, the water will still be only up to ur knee level. I am super scared of crabs, so i said that i'll scream 1st if I see one. Nevertheless, it was shiok. Cos everything's so dark that u would not know if the crab will be nibbling ur feet. All of us thought that we could have crabs for dinner the next day, but all we got was Jasmine, my housemate saying that she spotted one and there were 3 guys and 2 torchgirls, me and Jasmine trying to catch the crab. We did see the crab but it ran away too fast. At certain parts of the beach, my sandals got stuck in the sand. Had to use a lot of strength to get my sliipers out.

Although we didnt manage to catch any crabs, we will defintely be going again. Prob in the daytime where we can spot crabs easily and also to wear the oldest shoe we could find in case our shoes broke. A good excuse for getting a new shoe eh? Any excuse to get retail therapy...

I chose the wrong topic...

Crap... I chose the wrong topic for my psych 310 unit. I chose a memory topic thinking that it was a cross-cultural psych topic. Now I'm stuck with the memory topic where I have to go for their seminars and tutorials. Sianz... THe reason why i wanna do psych is because i want to go into social psych and now i'm stuck with cognitive psych... THank God my lecturer was my tutor last yr and she's pretty good.. The moral of my story... Do not do things last min... I'll just do things panickly and forget to use my brain to think....