My Lily for 3 days... We have a love-hate relationship...

My friend just gave me a cat to look after for 2 days. It was a mind boggling experience, mind you. ANd I;ve learnt lotsa things about taking care of a pet, given I've no history of owning one...

Her's name lily and she belongs to my friend, honey's ex housemate, who didnt want her. honey came back to the old house 3 weeks later to find lily looking really shriveled. She took Lily back but her current housemate who owns the places didnt like cats at all. Then she asked me whether I could take care of Lily for 5 days and I said okie, cos I thought it'll be a good experience being a first time cat owner.

I could only confine Lily to my room as my housemate, Jasmine is afraid of animals. THe 1st night Lily came, she was trying to orientate herself to my room. Honey bought over a rug and some cat food and told me all I needed to know about Lily. The 1st night was alright as Lily was sleeping on the rug. Whenever I went to bed, she would jump up and sleep beside me. I thought that was really cute. Plus she loved attention. On the second day, my friend, Gary was over at my place to discuss with me about the mel/sydney trip. suddenly, I saw Lily pooing on my bed. I quickly got Lily out of my bed, and to my horror, Lily pee -eed as well. Oh man, one corner of my bed was soaked with pee, from my quilt cover all the way to my matress. Damn, I was scolding Lily upside down while I took out everything to wash. Had to clean my quilt cover and bedsheet, as well as taking the matress out to dry. When I came home from school, I realised that it had rained and my whole matress was wet. I took everything in to dry with my heater on. After that, I bought a litter box so that Lily could pee and poo there. Thank god Lily did her business there during the subsequent days. However, the bad experience got to me. remember how Lily liked to jump onto my bed when I am sleeping. After that incident, I refused to let Lily lay on my bed just in case she pooed again. For the next night when Lily jumped up to my bed when I was sleeping, I would jump out of bed and shoo her away. I know she likes to sleep with me to get warmth, but I just couldnt take any more shit on my bed even though I knew she does all her business on the litter box. I had such a sleepness night. Lily kept jumping onto my bed when I shoo her away. I put a layer a plastic garbage bags over my quilt cover just in case she poos again, but I still got scared. Cats love attention, and everytime I do my work she comes around me and jumps around. I so wanna let her out but I'm afraid she'll pound on Jasmine. She loves to roam around and wants ppl to pat her. For the next night, my room smells of poo. It was unbearable. lily had the poo smell as well and everytime she jumps on my bed, I could smell the poo. I didnt sleep well and I couldnt study. It was the last straw and so I decided to ask Honey to take Lily back home. I had to endure Lily for one more day so I just kept Lily in my room and went to study and sleep in the living room. Poor Lily. She kept scratching the door as she wants to get out. Everytime I go into the room, she'll come next to me, wanting me to pat and play with her. Poor Lily, but no choice. My room smells of poo, I cant study, and I cant sleep. Plus I havent got over the stress of my 60% lab report that I handed in.

THank god Honey took Lily back today. Jasmine told me that she will miss Lily even though she's scared of her. No more poos. And back to a normal lifestyle. One thing I've gotten out of this: I'm tramutised by pets jumping onto my bed thinking that its a huge litter box. Hmm.. havent let it affect my decision of getting a pet in the future. Prefably a dog where I can take him/her out for walks everyday. And I'll only keep one if no one else in the house is scared of them and if there is a huge space where I can put the litter box and cat food. Besides that, no more pets in my room to come... I hope everything goes well with Lily. Hopefully she'll be well outside and she'll find a good owner.... My love-hate relationship with Lily ends after the 3rd day she came into my house... Your presence (ur poo i mean ) will always linger around....hee hee

The recession towards winter... will it be as gloomy and cold in the next month like how winter is?

June 1st. Officially the 1st day of winter. Brr... It has been raining for the past few days. The period from may 10th to June the 1st has been overpowering. Let's just say it has got to be the newest recession I've ever encounted.

Being sad can make you do crazy things. And I remembered just doing that. Probably doing crazy things is just a way to destress, make you forget ur troubles for a while. Rented a car together with Amanda. We're supposed to travel down south for a break, but in the end I had the car for a week. Woo ha, went driving, drove to many places I've never expected to go. More practice to gear up for driving when kel and xian is here. Sometimes I really wonder if ppl can look beyond my craziness. I'm always known to be silly, doing crazy things at crazy times. But everything done has a reason behind it. Behind the facade lies a sad person just waiting for ppl to console her, waiting for someone to knock the barricades surrounding her heart and heal it.

Oh well, but the craziness is over and came 5 straight days when I was stressed about my 60% psych lab report. Well, I wasnt very stressed, but my group mates made me stressed. It's an individual lab report but the report is based on grp work, and my group mates and I started on it at the start of the semester. They're all competitive as they wanna get into honours. Seeing them work so hard made me very stressed. We discussed almost every point almost every hour of the day 4 days before our lab report is due. I remember chat logs on msn about our hypothesis, results, methods, discussion. It was really mind draining. Seeing them work so hard made me really stressed. I thought my content was alright, but they kept changing and modifying theirs, and I had to keep up with them. Our tutor told us she'll be marking it and it'll be better if we all have the same pts. So no choice. Its like a final exam so I gotta do it. Slept at 6 am on the 19th of May and my groupmate handed in my report for me at 8 am. It was madness, I swear.

If the lab report wasnt enough, I just finished a 10% presentation. I think it was screwed up. I prepared for 5 days the day before, and the other person I presented with was stuttering the whole way through. I could see my tutor trying really hard to understand what was going on, and I rellay didnt think we did a good job. It's being assesed by the rest of the class, and I hope they'll be lenient with me as I was with them...

Oh well, crazy days.... overpowering.... I need strength... to survive till the end of the semester....

Sick.. and on top of that, insomniac...

Its the 4th day since I caught the flu bug. It just likes me and refuses to like someone else. Had a bad sore throat on thurs and on fri night, the flu hit me. Was in bed for 3 whole days. Was sneezing like mad for the past 2 days, and on top of that, I had a running nose. Gonna see a doctor tomorrow. Hopefully I'll be able to recover on wed. Thought of what suyen said "Wah, I didnt know I had such a great impact on you." Haha, yeah, u did. And what I told Joanne" all the wrong things just like me, and the good ones just never do." Oh well, I'm probably just blabbering on cos I am sick. And insomniac. Go away flu virus, and on top of that, just let the good things come soon, please?

trip down south (2)

At the beach at Albany. Jo, her bf and I were having a bbq there when I sneaked here to take a shot. A cloudy shot as it was drizzling then. okies. Shall end here. Seriously, I'm v. excited already! 40 more days till Kel and Xian comes!
At the wildberry and Lavender farm. Great view, yummlicious Lavender ice-cream! Kel and Xian, u gotta try it!
Jo & I outside the mammoth cave in Margaret River. Had to pay so we thought we skipped the caves to save the suspense for me when Kel and xian is here!
The best sunset I have ever watched. By the rocks in Cape Leeuwin. I'll make sure I bring my future bf there to admire the sunset. Saw ppl fishing there too.Lighthouse at Cape Leeuwin. It was closed when we got there. Doesnt matter. I'll make sure I'll get in when I bring Kel and xian there!

At Cape Leeuwin. The background was just mesmerising and its close to sunset.
A close shot at the grapes in the wineries. I was really tempted to grab a bunch of them if Joanne hadnt stopped me. There were still ppl in the tasting room and they might just kill me if I did!

Fudge factory at Margaret River.
Something's wrong with blogspot. Cant seem to upload more pics. Doesnt matter. More pics coming up! A shot taken at one of the wineries at Margaret river. I think it was the knights winery.

pictures of the trip down south with my darling girlfriend

I couldnt help taking a self-shot. Two girls in the midst of their road trip!

Looks like a small dam to me at the background. V. near the waterwheel

At this big waterwheel at a pit stop we made near chittering

Joanne's favourite, moo moos! hee hee
A view that we overlooked while having lunch in our car. All the wineries were closed so we couldnt couldnt visit any of them.

Went for a trip sown south to margaret river and Albany to get some practice driving and also for a short break. Here are some of the pictures for the trip. So here it is for u, Kel and xian, a prelude for ur road trip in perth and prob to tempt other e3 dogs to come? Above is Joanne and me at her place getting ready to go to chittering, 2 hours drive up north, near the swan river.

Melody...

I cant seem to think of a title for this entry and it happens that I am listening to the song "Melody" by David Tao now. So I shall name this blog Melody.

Life this year aint pretty bad at all. I have good housemates. Or at least things are going well in the house. Something seems to be missing. Been thinking about how I feel inside all along. I try and give myself as much as I can, not expecting anything back. But now I feel tired, tired of giving. Tired of giving and giving and not getting anything back. Tired of seeing how my friends and my dad and mum put other things or people in the 1st place. RIght now, for everybody, its not about "oh Nicole feels this, oh we should think about Nicole". NO. Its about "oh, its about this person, that person. We should think of her instead. Oh will you please help me look after this person? "not "Oh, can you please help me look after Nicole?" There are plenty of times where I feel like telling ppl my probs, but it takes more than 15 mins to think of the right person to call. Just someone to tell my probs, someone who is just willing to sit down to listen to me. SOmeone who doesnt claim to be busy with studies, work, and other things and is willing to spare me 15 mins of their time. Someone who hears and doesnt judge. Someone who is willing to give me a hug when I am down. SOmeone who is able to do that. One thing I have learned through my stay in Aus is not to bother ppl with ur probs cos u dont wanna burden them. But when it comes to a point, you just want someone to be beside you. Keep you going in life when life is shitty.

I think its really time for me to move on. In life. I think I had been pretty afraid to move along in relationships and friendships. Now that I have sorted out that if friendships and relationships are not meant to be, there's no point in forcing it. However, I feel that I've been giving myself too much leeway. I hold back too much now. I give myself plenty of leeway just in case I get hurt. I try to avoid means and ways of making myself get hurt. That's why I am too afraid to make the 1st move in friendships and relationships. Scared that if I do not like that person and if I give that person a chance, if things turn wrongly, the 2 of us will just get hurt in the end.At least now I realise its time to let go. Ppl will continiously judge you. Its time to let go of the past and how everyone has been looking at me. Ppl Judging me silently. Ppl Criticising me. I need to move on in life. I'll just go on, keep trying till I find the right guy, the right bunch of friends whom I can really belong to and talk to. No point living in other ppl's judgement. If I continue to do this, I'll just be living on how they judge me, not the way I deem fit.

Thanks to Eme and Joanne, who are so willing to listen.

So if you are reading this and you start to judge and criticise me, I now know that you are not worth being my friend. For a true friend who reads this will start to care and leave comments on this entry to spur me on hey? Haha :p

Sights of the day...

Finally back! My internet's getting back to working. The past week has been crazy. After finishing my finance exam on wed, I sped like a train for 4 days finishing my lab report that's due at 9 am this morning.

I was at the the guild today looking out for accomodation for Kel's friend who'll be coming to uwa in July. Was looking for the notice board which they job notices were put up. I was browsing through the babysitter section when I saw this notice posted up by this parent, "2 young girls. Would prefer someone like Mary Poppins." I was so amused by this ad that I was giggling to myself. Mary Poppins could fly and she took take anything that she wanted from that small bag of hers. Probably what the parent wanted was the requirement that the dad in the show wanted when looking for a babysitter.

Oh well, good luck to u! May Mary Poppins come flying through your window! Supercallifragallisticexpilledocius!