Half a book, but I am touched...

Its 2 39 am in the morning... I have read half the book of "Tuesday with Morris", and I cried after reading the fourth chapter... With each chapter, I began to think about different aspects of my life, how it has been... strangely, I kinda have gotten back to my emotional side... blogging this entry and letting people judge me doesnt seem to matter anymore... Maybe one person will read this entry and not criticise....

A quote from this book:
"The culture does not make people feel good about themselves. And you have to be strong to say if the culture doesnt work; dont buy it".
Wan'er, now I know why you are touched by this book. I am too.

There are too much feelings pouring in my head right now. Cant seem to write about this blog. I shall write more about it later. Maybe.

Best Friend

I finally met up with Wan'er since I came back... Feels really good... Back to my old-self... exchanged our 21st birthday gifts.. I'm happy she liked both the shoes and slippers that I bought her... She wanted a bag which came at the right time, plus the slippers just fitted her perfectly! Great :) I've got a book called "Tues with Morries"... I was so bored yesterday that I went to popular to find a book, but couldnt see any good ones to read... This book couldnt have come at a better time... Thanks gal... I know u're reading this :)

Exchanged our lives for the past 6 months.. .It feels really good... honest, transparent feelings were let out to her... sentences said halfway which she could get and jokes which we could both laugh about when all our other friends couldnt understand and therefore not laugh about... 8 yrs of friendship.. haha... Gained some wise advise from her.. she's right... one year of wandering about and trying to seek other new experiences... defintely gained something, but some things just came to naught... I guess its time to move on... I will make a start soon.. my new year resolutions.. haha... hope it all works out well...

I'll defintely have time on my hands to read "Tuesday with Morris".. Hope this book will touch me the way it has touched Wan'er... And to Wan'er... I still love u gal... and remember I drink tea without sugar!

I need a job!

After meeting up with kaili, I realised I needed a job. There are so many things I want to buy...

Here's a list of "things" I want to get if I have the money:

1) portable hard disk... hmm.. prob 60 GB
2) i pod nano... 2 GB
3) PSP.. I wouldnt mind PS 2...
4) drum lessons... $63 a month at yamaha...
5) Backstreet Boys Concert.. I used to sing to every backstreet boys song when I was in my teens...
6) Oasis concert... haha... I wouldnt mind oasis and I think Jeremy would be happy as well.. hee
7) Drama serials.. Want to bring some back to perth to watch!
8) Nokia N70... I've always wanted a tv phone...

and of cos to be able to go out with my friends and have a good meal or movie/ktv/night of clubbing/pool or even bowling...

Gonna start looking for a job tomorrow...

The heart has reasons that reasons does not know. But right now, my heart is set in a self-destructive mode.

I remembered I was watching this show on tv the day before and there was an interview with David Tao. The host was asking him about his love life cos he wrote the song "Melody" for his ex-gf, Melody. Then the host asked him"Why are u men like that? When you break up with a girl only to realise that she is the one for you, why do you still let her go?" He answered:"After a certain period of time, things change. The love you have for a girl does not become love, but you love her out of sorriness for having taken up so much of her time being together with you and it all ends up in a failed relationship". I cant remember the details in between, but then he went on to say "You can love a person for many reasons; you may love her because you feel sorry for her, you may love her because you have been together with her for many years, you may love her because she has done many things for you and you are touched".

Till now, I still cant forget what David Tao said. I cant judge based on my experience, but I kinda have to agree to what he says, esp the back part. You may love a person because that person has done a lot for you, and you love the person because you are touched by the person. Things will defintely change over time, esp when 2 ppl are in different geographical areas. When its time to let go, you will have to let go even if you still like that person.

Okie, you guys may argue with me but these are just my thoughts. I remember saying this to my best friends "The heart has reasons that reason does not know. But right now, my heart is set in a self-destructive mode".

A Quiet Christmas

I finally have the urge to blog... at christmas... sorry if anyone (if anyone was interested to read my blog) was waiting for a new entry. Its a new experience just being at home this christmas, a home where people are physically around you.

Been travelling this holidays. Went to korea and thailand with my parents. It was snowing the day before I landed in Korea, and the day after I left Korea. I was happy enough to be able to play with the snow. Oh, and an experience of skiing, which I totally suck. I think I have a phobia of slopes. I love Korea food. I have no idea why, but I just love kimchi, and the idea of eating either steamboat or barbeque all day, minus the fact that my clothes will be full of bbq smell. Got hooked to this Korean drama starring Rain while I was watching tv in the hotel in korea.
Had fun shopping in thailand. I love the pratunam market. I can get cheap bargains. Told my mum that I wouldnt be shopping anymore when I get back to spore. Haha, well, at least for a month! Didnt really get to eat authentic thai food.

I went to genting with meixian, Kaili, Weitian. The trip was full of fun, laughter, adreline rush added with coughing, sore throat and flu. I regret eating Billy Bombers with Maggy the day before my trip. Didnt sleep the night before the trip as well. Lost my voice in the morning on the day of the trip. My voice got worse when I reached genting. My throat was so bad that I couldnt talk at all. Having pizza hut that night made it worse. Haha. The highlight of the genting trip was sitting the space shot, the ride whereby they slowly take u up at a height of 8 storeys, stop for 16 seconds(I counted) and then drop with a velocity of (gravity?) I cant describe the feeling when the thing dropped. I was lifted up from my seat. Luckily I was strapped tightly. But it was shiok. I wouldnt mind sitting it again! haha. It was Kaili and weitian's 1st time in genting. Bet they had fun.

Been doing nothing much since I came back from spore. Just watching lots of shows. I need a job. Been feeling quite broke. I think everyone's busy with work as well. Havent met up with some friends still.

Merry Christmas to everyone reading this blog! Hope you guys are enjoying yourselves right now!

guitar.

I have always wanted to learn the electric guitar.
It sounds weird, but it gives me a feeling of control.
By strumming as loud as I can,
I let off steam.
The loudness of the guitar emphasizes my mood.
Louder means I am in a lousy or high mood, and thus I can let off more steam.
Used to remind me of this habit that I have.
I used to blast Linkin park's cd in my discman to the max vol.
Its theraputic. Helps me to sleep.

My guitar in spore is broken into half.
No guitar for me to play.
No money to get a new one.
Damn.
I wish I could play the guitar now...

Boulevard Of Broken Dreams

I walk a lonely road,
the only one that I have ever known.
Don't know where it goes,
But its home and I walk alone.

I walk this empty street,
On the Blvd of Broken Dreams.
Where the city sleeps,
and I'm the only one and I walk alone.

My shadows the only one that walks beside me,
My shallow heart's the only one that's beating.
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me,
Till then I walk alone.

Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah Ahh
Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah Ahh

I'm walking down the line,
that divides me somewhere in my mind.
On the border line of the edge,
and where I walk alone.

Read between the lines,
of what's f**ked up and everything's alright.
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive,
And I walk alone.

I walk alone.
I walk alone.
I walk alone.
I walk a...........................

My shadow's the only one's beside me,
My shallow heart's the only one that's beating.
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me,
Till then I walk alone.

Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah Ahh
Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah Ahh

I walk this empty street,
on the Boulevard of Broken Dreams.
where the city sleeps,
And I'm the only one and I walk al...

My shadows the only one that walks beside me,
My shallow hearts the only one that's beating.
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find,
Till then I walk away....

9 am market...

Just had to go out in the morning...
9 am market...
went for breakfast...
Nice economic bee hoon....
Uncle having kopi reading newspapers...
auntie going marketing...
people in all walks of life in the streets in the late morning...
jogging, strolling, taking kids out on a walk, ppl going to work...
Feels so good to be surrounded by people again...
yet again.. something is missing...
all these seem like a distant sight...
feels like I havent been back in spore for a long long time...

I shall end here.
ran out of words.

3 am never seemed so quiet...

From the window of my room, I can only see taxis on the road...
This reminded me of the vibrant nightlife that Spore has...
Feeling nostalgia...
Still remembered I was around at night eating supper with my aus friends, be it in aus or spore...
Their activities are fully packed I guess...
You guys know who you are...
Come back quick...
so that I can hang out with you guys at night...
supper, driving escapades, beach, clubbing...