4th day of work

Oh man...

On the 4th day of work, I received over 100 plus e-mails. All full of resumes. I placed 2 jobads, one on JobsCentral and the other on JobStreet. I was trying to read through 100 plus resumes. I had to be v. familiar with the job descriptions. Which I am not in the 4th day. Cust service, reception, admin, HR etc etc etc. And I was thought by my senior not to be very quick in clearing my e-mail. Haiz... she told me to be more aggressive. I am beginning to doubt if I can do sales. Then weijun told me during dinner not to give up on the 4th day of work cos i'll nvr know whether i can do it on the 4th day or not.

First day sucked cos my other colleague, Amy who was supposed to turn up didnt turn up for some family reason. Haiz.. Then no orientation only until second day. Haiz, so sian.... Then for next few days is info overload. then my senior say degree liao should be able to do all these. etc etc etc. Then first day nvr go out to eat. Cos we eat in 2 shifts, and i got the late shift. Then senior dont want to da pao. So end up eat in office. Then second day also the same. Super sian...

But 4th day ok lah. Got to to tanjong pagar exchange to eat Yong tao foo. Today seniors all goin haloween party. They ask me to go but I dont want... damn tired and just wanted to chill...

Oh man, my blog is beginning to sound monotonous.... oh no, working life's gonna be like that soon...

First Day of Work...

First day of work? Sucks.. I hate first days at work...

And I hate for Dec to come...

I hate to put everyone in a spot..

But its best not to meet. Cos it hurts so much....

I just hope ppl ard me know what to do and how to react. Becos rite now, I dont really want to meet.

Please understand... that's all I ask...

Will's Birthday Video

I logged on facebook and I saw a youtube birthday msg for Will. It's 11 mins long and it was done by Joel, his ex housemate. Joel didnt sleep the whole night making the video, going ard everyone's house (so many places!) and editing it. I was sooo touched. I cried for half the duration of the video.

For my whole life, I've never had that kind of surprise before. I think its so sweet of Joel to do that. Talk about a real surprise! Good on you Joel!

Happy Birthday Noelle!

Happy Birthday Babe!

I know you're reading this =)

happy yet sad at the same time...

I've gotten the job as a recruitment consultant. My manager offered me the position and I would be starting work on the 28th. Finally goes my worry of not being able to find a job with the coming recession.

However, this happiness didnt sustain me for long. I still feel sad. I still cry when looking at facebook. This hurts so much so much... I wonder how long it'll take for it to heal. Want to shout out loud, tell the whole world how I feel.

Can anyone hear me? Can anyone understand? Can anyone lend me a shoulder to lean on? Can someone offer me a hug?

The Winner Takes It All

I don't wanna talk

About things we've gone through

Though its hurting me

Now its history

I've played all my cards

And that's what you've done too

Nothing more to say

No more ace to play

The winner takes it all

The loser standing small

Besides the victory

That's her destiny

I was in your arms

thinking I belonged there

I figured it made sense

Building me a fence

Building me a home

Thinking I'd be strong there

But I was a fool

Playing by the rules

The gods may throw the dice

Their minds as cold as ice

And someone way down here

Loses someone dear

The winner takes it all

The loser has to fall

It's simple and its plain

Why should I complain

Tell me does she kiss

Like I used to kiss you?

Does it feel the same

When she calls your name?

Somewhere deep inside

You must know I miss you

But what can I say

Rules must be obeyed

The judges will decide

The likes of me abide

Spectators of the show

Always staying low

The game is on again

A lover or a friend

A big thing or a small

The winner takes it all

I don't wanna talk

'cause it makes me feel sad

And I understand

You've come to shake my hand

I apologise

If it makes you feel sad

Seeing me so tense

No self-confidence-

But you see

The winner takes it all

The winner takes it all

The game is on again

A lover or a friend

A big thing or a small

The winner takes it all

The winner....

horrible dream...

I had a horrible dream last night... It was almost identical to the horrible months ago, except that now the female had changed. I woke up breaking cold sweat. Then I realised how much I still cared for ***, how much I still like ***. This time round, I didnt dream of running to another person's house, asking that person to comfort me when the horrible dream happened. Becos the other person had hurt me deep as well. Too deep, I realised. So in the end, I realised how much I like these 2 ppl. Sounds funny isnt it? Sounds ironic isnt it? In the end it was me who would be affected so badly. Now I dont even want to see *** if *** is together with ***. I have no idea if my heart will be repaired by then. But its the first for me. First to let my heart be wounded by then. The wound is really deep. Will it heal by 2 months time? I have no answer... Just please dont let the tears rolling like that. Its not nice to always be seen like this....

Somewhat nostalgic

I'll let u guys out on a secret. I've been on facebook everyday looking at the pictures my friends posted. Friends in Perth mainly. All the birthday celebrations, trips etc. Everytime I see my friends having so much fun, I get so jealous. Here I am in spore struggling to get a job. I'm constantly frustrated of not being able to work, even though I know how much work sucks. I really want to move on, move on so that I can get my experience over soon, so that I can look forward to planning my next step. I know everyone's turn will soon come and I'll be first to step into the workforce, but still looking at the pics in facebook sucks. Nonetheless, I still like to see what they have been up to.

I really miss my friends in Perth. Every little thing I encounter, be it getting an interview, facing probs in spore, the first ppl I wanna call are my friends in Perth. I really miss hanging out with Noelle, I miss talking to my mei, I miss Jasmine knocking on my door everyday after she finishes work, I miss hanging out with the ISS people. I miss MCW, I miss spring feast, but most of all, I miss the friendships forged through ISS and MCW. U know, the friends I know still stay with me till now. I now meet up with Angel and Yingsi in Spore, I met up with Jeanette a few days ago. These are the ppl I've been out with most often.

Sometimes I wonder whether things will change when I go out to work. One year is not long but its not short either. A lot of things can change within a year, esp when 2 ppl are in diff environments. Priorties become diff, goals and thinkings change. I know that cos many of my girlfriends now embrace a diff mindset, one I am yet to be accoustemed to. I am looking forward to what working life brings, the network, the stress, the tiredness, but somehow I wish I had people who were in the same phase as me. Helps to know someone out there is facing the same things as I do. And deep down inside I wished ALL the ISS and MCW peeps were from spore. And everyone would return to spore eventually so that we can all be reunited in spore. Hang out or do stuff. But thinking of that, its actually the diversity that brought us together. Learning from each other, changing, evolving to be a better person. For that I'm grateful. To date, I've nvr looked back and regretted spending 4.5 years of my life doing a double degree. I just wished I could have done else, like HR.

No matter what, I tell myself to be strong, to embrace what is coming. And to make the best use of my life. My goal? To put awesome pics on facebook and make everybody awe at my photos. hahaha.. As if...

Interviews & economy...

Went for the interview. It was for a role as a conference producer. What the role entails was to produce and research possible topics for conferences, and after establishing the topics, I have to make calls to possible speakers. And after I've established a conference, I have to work with the marketing and sales department to sell my conference. And I have to attend the conference and make sure everything goes smoothly. I was asked to come up with a proposal with the topic "marketing" in 2 days. I wrote a 2 page proposal on using customer service as an important tool to market singapore as a tourism hub. I think it wasnt that good. But the manager hasnt gotten back to me yet, so we shall see...

News has been going about the economy going on recession. With the global Meltdown by IMF, and news of intrest rates going down, this really isnt a good time to be looking for a job. Many jobs will be cut, pay will be cut, and the world is going into turmoil. I tell myself not to be choosy. Just look for whatever comes. I've started applying for the Big 4 already, going to try other accounting firms too. This sucks. To be going through all these by myself. Sometimes I wish I had friends going through the same stages as I do. Getting depressed day by day applying and waiting for prospective employers to call... Oh well, such is life....

Job interview tmr!

Having a job interview tmr at a co which organises conference for the position of "conference producer" even though I dont know what it entails. We shall see... I hope for luck for tmr's interview! Hope I get a job soon...



Took a break today from looking for work. Woke up at 11 am then had breakkie and read newspapers. The global economy crisis is affecting everyone, including me, a job-seeker. Economy, dont go down k? Wait for me to find a job first. Then u can go down. But not so much! Cos I wanna earn money to buy lotsa things and travel! hahaha



Rewatched sweet 18 which Noelle lent me. Finished watching a couple of days ago but still wanted to rewatch certain parts. Super nice show! Good for chillaxing man.



Talenite is tmr! Cant believe its been a yr since I took part in talenite! Rite Noelle? Time passes really quickly. Tmr night I'll be going for a career talk somewhere in Raffles Place. Not sure if there'll be a formal interview. But according to the person who called me, there'll be personality tests. I've had my fair share of personality tests to know i hate doing those. Long and makes my head spin!

Back to Singapore

I'm offically back in Singapore... for abt 2 weeks already. Now its crunch time. Have to find a job.

My life for the past week has been looking at job ads, applying for jobs, and waiting for companies to call me back. Everytime I get an unknown phone call, I get sooo excited! But when I realised its not the companies, my face fell. You should have been there to see it. From a smile to a frown... sighz..

It doesnt help now that I'm sick. Been sick for nearly 2 weeks. It first started with a cough. Then phelgm. After 2 weeks, the phelgm still refused to go away... I have been coughing the phelgm out day and night, to the extent that i cant sleep at night. Right now i am so sick of coughing out my phelgm that I dont feel like talking at all. The feeling of phelgm getting stuck in my throat is just horrible....

Speaking of jobs, I actually had 2 job interviews. They were both recruitment agencies. Both required sales (which I didnt know that recruitment firms actually have). ONe offered me a temp position and I had a day to think abt it. It was a v. hard decision. Knowning that I cant do sales was one thing, but getting a temp position really put me off. What if i cant be promoted to a perm position? Then it'll be worst to find another job given the economy getting worst day to day... I called the friends i could think of for advice. Everyone gave me a diff opinion. Some say go for it (mum & aunt contributed to that): they say if u nvr try u'll nvr know. True. That's what I've always been. For everything. If u dont try, how do u know whether u can do it or whether it suits u? On the other hand, some ppl (okies, mainly emes) said that I'm a double degree holder and I'm worth more than a temp job. Plus she knows that I cant do sales. Hmm... okies, reasonable but some part of me do want to try it out to really see if i can handle the job. Past experiences of me being impatient and wanting to try everything out has failed in a few instances. Some still hurt till now. So I've decided to be more patient and try to see if i can find other jobs. Look ard and scour for something that I really like. Therefore I rejected the temp offer. Oh man, for one week i was still thinking whether it was the right decision. No one has called me for an interview ever since. Haiz... Nvr mind, find already. Keep on looking bah!